food :(

Have you been so hungry until you dreamt of food?

Well, let me tell you this. I've had the best dream about food ever and I woke up drooling and screaming for food. I have not been eating proper food for quite some time. I miss eating good food.

I want to have green vegetables, meet, fish and rice please.

I want food NOW. I'm hungry :(

film.

I'm tired of working in this company. Sometimes I don't even know what am I doing. I have very high expectation of how the production will turn out and it always disappoint me, in this particular company I mean.

Yes, commercial stuff can earn $ but that's not where my passion is. I see things very differently than what the others do and that's the reason why I love working with Chris. Chris is a fabulous director and he do stuff that I love and I enjoy. Independent is what I'm looking for.

I love film making. There's no words that I can use to describe how much I'm in love with film making.

Some people look at film as it's only for entertainment purposes but for me it's a total different thing. Making a film and it's content is a message to send out to the people around the world. It's not just for you to have fun while watching it and forget about it later on. The content of the film is the most important for me. A film at least need to include some social issues. It needs to have some sort of message or lesson.

I'm gonna stop writing now. I can't continue. It hurts. argh! :(

New life.

Sitting in Indah Villa, using JJ's laptop and watching everyone talking. And, I'm here writing this post. Life has been crazy. The past few months I've done lots of things that I never thought off. It's totally crazy.

So many things to say but I do not know what to begin with.

Ghayath - A person I met no longer ago but he was like my brother. He left Malaysia and went back to Bahrain. I miss him a lot. When he was in Malaysia we fight a lot and he is really annoying but after he left, everyone is missing him. we all want him to come back! Please! :) Without him, life is less interesting.

C-2-28 - A new home. A place where we chill all the time with some good friends. That house is filled with special kids like us. 4 of the most special kids are Ping, Zuher, Sib and I.

Ping - too sleepy ( Ping sleeps a lot. SERIOUSLY A LOT)

Sib - too down ( Sib is too down for down syndrome. If you look at him PROPERLY, you'll notice that)

Zuher - too retarded ( I don't even know how to explain this.)

Jojo (me) - too weird. ( For some reason I'm really weird. I am a WEIRDO)

Yeah. 4 of us can rule the world. I kid you not. :))

Anyway, just wanna post something up because it has been a long time since i wrote anything. :)

Wish you all Happy Ramadhan and Hari Raya :)

SICK

my cough is killing me. the flu makes me want to cut off my nose. the fever makes me want to scream and the body ache makes me want to cry.

i really feel like dying.

Sometimes, it's so hard just to push myself up to walk. Man, this is crazy. If this continue, might as well i commit suicide and die first. that'll be perfect. I'm mad because the only time that i do not suffer is when i'm asleep. :( seriously, help me!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

- idiotic -

i can't believe i let myself did the same thing again. haven't i learned from the past? man! what is wrong with me? too naive or stupid you shall call it. it hurts a bit but this time i've saved myself before things get worst. but still, it hurts like a bitch but i believe it will go away soon. i hope so. i really hope so. as for now, i need to chill out. bar sonic, here i come! :)